I wish my father would have explained to me that I do not have a problem, I have sinned!!!  It does make me wonder how much I personally can do to change the way Society looks at Pornography, Adultery, and Addiction…

Father, Thank you for this teaching, I am a sinner and I would not only like to learn more about this subject but I would like you to use me to teach others about the dangers of  looking at these sins as measly problems.  Thank you father for the strength I have needed to put down my video games and Movies and pick up you word and teachings.  Love is amazing and you are Love!!!  Amen

The other day I was talking to my daughter after she said some words that were very frightening to me, she said, “Dad, I don’t believe in Love.”

Of course, I explained to her that I loved her and God loved her.  She said that I “Had” to love her.  I did not lecture her for to long since I knew real quick that she was in the, “ignore Dad” mode after a couple of minutes.

Fast forward a couple of days, caught in a lie, and digging a hole deep, my daughter and I got in an argument.  I was proud of myself for not losing my temper.  I told her that I loved her and it hurt me when those that I love show lack of integrity and dishonesty.  She finally realized that she was caught and fessed up to the truth.

Fast forward another night, She just got home from a friends house and came to me and said, “my friends told me that I just need to stop lying to you and tell you the truth from the start, you are cool when you know the truth.”

My response,  Psalm 5:6, “The Lord Detests murderers and deceivers.”  I then continued with, “I, like God have unconditional love for my children, there is never anything you can do that will take my love for you.  Unlike our Heavenly Father, I do not have the patience that he has, I am trying my hardest to make sure my tongue does not lash out at you in my anger.  You follow the simple few rules and all will be good, just as in the bible Matthew 22:37-40 – There are only 2 rules you need to know, with those 2 rules, everything else will fall into place.”

I need to realize that this is something that has taken me a very long time to understand, therefore, when those around me do not understand, I can not worry about them.  I know that the Lord will get them to understand!!!  After all, It was promised to me!

Lord, Thank you for all the Love you provide me, Thank you for the way that you can always take away my worries and help fight away the evil that surrounds me and tries to penetrate my heart.  I know that like Peter, I can fall in my faith and you will pick me back up.  I understand that in my travels I will fall many times, but I will not Fall Away from you.  Please continue to whisper in my ears the words that give me strength and show those that are close to my heart that your whispers are great words that once you hear you can toss all worries to the side, because though your Son Jesus Christ, you will take those worries and do your will though them!

Amen!!!!!!

Matthew 13:22

Romans 8:38

1 Peter 5:7

Luke 22

I have had a hard time with a couple of people I must deal with on a daily basis.  The rumors and gossip that they spew about me makes it hard to deal with them.  I understand that I need to walk in Love with the Lord and chase the Hate out of my body.  Love thy enemies is hard to do when those enemies hate me so much that I have a hard time believing they can imagine some of the lies they tell.

So lately I have been praying for these people.  I figure, if I loved them I would pray for them, why not pray for them.  I have quickly realized that it is absolutely impossible to Hate someone that you are praying for.

So once again, Lord, I have heard the rumors these people have said about me, Thank you for allowing those that hear the lies understand the truth.  I pray to you today to soften their hearts so they see the pain they are causing and lead them to you.  Allow them to understand that the love and acceptance that they are looking for can be found in you.  Also, Lord, please allow me to show them what your love can provide and use my mouth to say what needs to be said to them.  Allow me to hear what I need to hear and let me go where you want me to go.  With you Lord I am not hurt by the sharp tounges of others.

Amen

For the past few days I have had the simple prayer:

Lord, Please grace me with a deep healing sleep tonight, Allow me to wake up rejuvenated. As it says in James 5, I am praying in Faith to heal my body so I may have a productive day with you.

Amen

Thank you Lord – I felt Wonderful Today!!!  James 5:13-15

2 Corinthians 12:7

I have noticed that the temptations that I faced before I walked with the Holy Spirit have began to strengthen.  I believe that before I had Allowed God to fight for me Satan only needed those weak spirits in my life to attack me and tempt me in sin.  Now that God is walking with me and has placed invincible walls to protect me, Satan now Uses the strongest of Gods enemies to attack me.  Guess what!!!  They can’t get though and it is wonderful!!!

Lord, Please use my mind, body and Love to show those around me how they can allow the peace you provide to overflow from them.  Turn the love that spills out of them into the protective wall they need to keep the attacks from the weak away from them.  Do not allow any to penetrate their wall of love without first enjoying the Love you provide.

Joel 2:28

I understand that what is being said in Joel 2:28 is about Prophesy. However, I was kinda freaked out the other night.  Not freaked out in a bad way but I was in Shock.  You need to understand that my walk on this path with Jesus has not been a long one.  I was getting in the habit of praying A LOT!!!  I was trying to listen as much as talk to God.  This specific day I was asked by a loved one, “How do you know you are saved?”  I had a hard time answering this, I just know didn’t seam to cut it.  So I prayed to Our Lord the question, and asked Him, “How do I know I am saved?”

That night I went to bed and prayed before I fell asleep the same question.  Now I am sure that there are some people out there that will read this and think that I created this in my sub-conscience, however, I have never had a dream that I could remember in the morning.  This one has stuck with me for a few days to the point that I can still remember every aspect of this dream.   So on with the Dream:

It was fast, there wasn’t a lot of different scenes in this dream, it started with this beautiful figure in front of me shining very bright and I could see a large smile on his face, I also saw 6 other figures behind.  I did recognize my wife there.  I felt so much Happiness at this moment and then the scene changed.  I was flying behind the bright figure on a Horse and I was so close that I felt as though I could reach out and touch the horse.  I could see us heading towards the Ground that was dusty and brown.  It felt like we were in a tunnel of clouds so all I could see was the bright figure, the horse and the ground in front of us.  The Tunnel we colorful clouds lots of oranges and reds.

So, am I crazy?  As soon as I woke up I realized that I was watching the Lord return to the earth.  I was a part of it, Thank You Lord for this Dream!!!!

You may wonder what I am talking about with this title.  Well, this weekend on of my children was playing with a Monster High Doll and someone came up to her and said Monsters are Evil.  I guess it wouldn’t have bothered me that much if it was said to me, however, this woman said it directly to my daughter.  So later my daughter came up to me and asked me, “Dad, Is my monster evil?”

I decided to look into the bible and try to find out what the bible said about Monsters.  No to much mentioned except for Sea Monsters.  So I then decided to look up the definition of Monster:

adj: enormous or impressive especially in size, extent, or numbers

noun: a: an animal or plant of abnormal form or structureb: one who deviates from normal or acceptable behavior or character : a threatening force  : an animal of strange or terrifying shape : one unusually large for its kind

After I read these Definitions I asked my daughter, “can you tell me about your Monster?”

Her response was, “Well she is Count Dracula’s Daughter, she doesn’t like blood so she only eats fruits and vegetables.  She always wears pink and always tries to make her friends feel great by saying they are beautiful.”

After she explained that to me I read her the definition of Evil:

1

a: morally reprehensible :sinful, wicked <an evil impulse>b: arising from actual or imputed bad character or conduct<a person of evil reputation>

2

aarchaic:inferiorb: causing discomfort or repulsion :offensive <an evilodor>c:disagreeable <woke late and in an evil temper>

3

a: causing harm :pernicious <the evil institution of slavery>

So I tried to explain this in her terms, “Evil is something that cause someone to hurt or feel bad.  Some one that tries to Make you feel bad or Hurt is doing something Evil”

I then asked, “So do you think your Monster is evil?”

She said, “Ohhh, nooo, She only does nice things and makes people feel happy!”

To the lady that told my daughter that Monsters are evil, 

Unfortunately, you seam to be one of those people that can say something before actually understanding what you are saying.  I had a friend that was called Monster by a lot of people, this friend was 6 ft. 7 in. kids before we were out of 9th grade.  under the definition of Monster, he was one!!!  Under the definition of Evil, he was not.  I would, however, like to thank you for the great teaching moment for something as important as evil.

Matthew 7:2

Thank you,

Boaz

I am new to Living with God in my Life.  Not new to praying, not new to knowing about God, but New to Trusting, Believing and Listening to God.  I am a newborn to faith.  One thing I have noticed since I have first started to Pray to God frequently, and most importantly, listening to God, is I have forgotten a lot of my past sins. Guess what!!!  God hasn’t!!!

I was driving the other day and while driving I was talking to God about the in ability for me to make up for the sins against him.  One of the main sins, Not trusting in God.  So I was asking Him to help me recognize his voice and understand when He is talking to me and it is not my brain trying to take over.  All of a sudden I felt the uneasy feeling of guilt, I was also reminded of my first marriage and my wedding day.  My first Marriage broke up with me broken and in pain many years ago.  It was one of the things that I have trained my mind to block out.  It was a memory that I did not want therefore it was dumped.

As I was driving I felt how nervous I was before the wedding, it was like I was there again.    I felt the ache in my stomach that I had on that day,  these were not butterflies, these were Eagles, there was not fluttering in my stomach there was talon ripping, beak slashing aching in my stomach.  I did not have cold feet, I had frozen body.  This was before I even got to the picturesque place that we chose for our small group of friends to meet us so they could witness our jump.

Once I got there, No one else was there, I was only about 15 minutes early someone should have been there.  Then God reminded me as I thought of this that I felt relieved at that moment in my past.  Most Grooms would have been heart broken, not me I remember feeling relieved.  Then the phone call, one of the brides friends telling me that they decided on this new place with beautiful flowers in bloom, so I started the truck back up and drove towards the place.

So here I was the other day, driving my car asking to learn how to Listen and Recognize Gods voice.  I am not going to say I had any visions or anything, but I felt everything I felt that day and at last as I remember what I was feeling as I pulled up to all my friends for my First Marriage, I heard, not in voice but in my heart god say, “If you won’t pay attention to me, I will be here when you understand.”

Here I was 20 years later, I quickly prayed, “Papa, Love, Amazing God.  Thank you for being here as I now understand.”

Is it bad of me that I can not wait for the moment described in 1 thessalonians 5, and 1 Corinthians 15:51-53?  I know there are so many people on this planet that are not part of the Church that will be taken like a thief in the night.  So this is why I ask, am I wrong to look forward to that moment and pray for that to be NOW?  This world makes me so exhausted sometimes and even with the Holy Spirit assisting me along the way, I am ready!!!