Talking to Ruth the other night I came across a realization that I have been blind in the past but now, that I am praying to understand God, I can now see. It is human nature to live life looking to fill the emptiness in your life and no matter what you do you will not fill it. I see this in our Oldest Daughter. She feels unloved, unintelligent and unwanted. Ruth and I continuously tell her that she is loved, smart and we love spending time with her. Our Daughters response is always, “whatever,” (with a perfect eye roll)
My realization is this is one girl that feels unworthy of my love, just like, not so long ago, I felt unworthy of Gods love. I have also have gone from a very stressful life to realizing that as long as God is my source, protector and MY Father, the stress is gone.
So I now pray to the Lord that he promises that my household will be saved, and I pray for the Lord to show me, tell me and give me the ability to speak, show and act in a way that my Household will find Jesus and the emptiness they have will be filled with Jesus Christ the way it has been for me.
Acts 16:30-32
