Our Peace Path

Talking to Ruth the other night I came across a realization that I have been blind in the past but now, that I am praying to understand God, I can now see.  It is human nature to live life looking to fill the emptiness in your life and no matter what you do you will not fill it.  I see this in our Oldest Daughter.  She feels unloved, unintelligent and unwanted.  Ruth and I continuously tell her that she is loved, smart and we love spending time with her.  Our Daughters response is always, “whatever,” (with a perfect eye roll)

My realization is this is one girl that feels unworthy of my love,  just like, not so long ago, I felt unworthy of Gods love.  I have also have gone from a very stressful life to realizing that as long as God is my source, protector and MY Father, the stress is gone.

So I now pray to the Lord that he promises that my household will be saved, and I pray for the Lord to show me, tell me and give me the ability to speak, show and act in a way that my Household will find Jesus and the emptiness they have will be filled with Jesus Christ the way it has been for me.

Acts 16:30-32

I have lived off of Faith for a very long time.  I have lived with the belief that no matter how hard life gets God will not place something in my way that I can not handle.  The key word here is “I” that is also my failure in the past.  I have had Faith that my path will have pot holes and I may need to climb some fallen trees or fend off some wild beasts, but it will be nothing that I can not handle.  Recently, I have been trying to work though some of these things, again, on my own.  I have failed many times, to the point where I believed I was on the wrong path.  This led me to ask for help, and since I have a wonderful wife in Ruth, She has asked for help also.  This is where I learned that my mistake in the past was not my faith, however, my company.  I am not suppose to walk the path alone.  I am not to fend off the beasts alone.  I will always have company on the path.  It can get pretty dark and scary on the path if you have no company.

Ruth and I were not married with Jesus in mind, this is neither of our first marriages, and none of the past marriages had Jesus in mind when they happened.  However, Ruth and I noticed that we were on similar paths and when you are fighting the world its always nice to have some one to assist you or encourage you.  So after our marriage I was walking the path with my beautiful bride, hand in hand and happy as could be.  We soon found out that our paths were the same direction and similar obstacles, but not identical.  It always seamed to work out, I make it though my Obstacle and then I encourage her though hers. She gets over hers and encouraged me.  Team work, that is what marriage was!!

The problem came when there was an Obstacle on my path and when I looked over to her for encouragement, I noticed another Obstacle in her path.  Encouragement and assistance did not come to either of us, since we were dealing with our own issues.  This is when we asked for help.  We talked to a counselor and it was a highly recommended Christian Counselor.  We both learned within the first few minutes we were going along this all wrong, why are we on our own paths and why are we alone?  That was when we first Prayed together.  It has been a few months since that has happened, and instead of two people on two paths, we are now 2 people on the same path with Jesus the Christ walking in front of us to clear the path for us.

As before I know there is not going to be anything in our path that we can’t handle, the difference now, Is WE know God is not placing Obstacles in our path, Jehovah Jireh will provide us what we need to make the journey together.

Gen. 22:14      I John 4:9      Philippians 4:19

TO: Ruth,

I am so excited to walk this path with you, I know with God as our Protector, Provider and Guide this will be nothing less than Amazing!!!

I love you,

Boaz

Proverbs 21:23

Ephesians 4:29

Today is a Day that I would like to live totally in thanks.  There have been many things in my life that could be looked at by most people, that are not on the path to Jesus, as tribulation and torment.  I have said in the past that I have a very loud voice, however, you may not know that one of my faults has also been a sharp tounge that has gotten me into trouble many times in the past.

Lately my prayers have been concentrating on the Demons attacking my household and helping me and my family calm our tounges.  Tongues are a dangerous muscle, they can cause more damage than any weapon on earth. 

Lord, Our Father, I just want to pray today to thank you, Thank you for calming my tounge in the attacks of others, Thank you for allowing me to hold my temper when it looked as though there was no way to avoid fighting, I am in awe that I did not have to resort to fight or flight, I thank you for the ability to stay calm without fighting to resolve the issue.

Lord, thank you for your Love although I do not deserve it and I look forward to more understanding and guidance though your son Jesus the Christ.

Amen

Psalm 34:13

and my new favorite – Proverbs 17:28

Proverbs 3:13-35

This is probably going to be the hardest thing for me on my path.  Wisdom I am unsure I will gain to much, its the understanding that I am having a lot of issues with.  I am a sinner and I know this and although I am Christian I am still a sinner.  The Wisdom that I believe I am learning now is that I can not control people and like the Lord Our Father, I can not force anyone to listen to me or believe that I know what I am talking about.  I can not keep placing the emotional needs that I have in other peoples decisions, I can not force understanding on those that will not accept it from me.  I will need to have God help me with this a lot. 

Our Father has given us free will and allows us to make our own decisions, I need to release the worry and fear in my life to allow those that I love to make their own decisions.  I will continue to pray for them and I will continue to offer them my council in certain situations, However, I must not force it upon them.  I must also understand that up until this point I have made many decisions though emotion and not faith in God, therefore I may be disciplined by God and I know, just like when I discipline my children, that God is doing it out of love. 

If you find this Blog and actually read this please add me to your prayers, Almost 40 years of decisions that were not based on faith and almost 40 years of sin in my life.  I know God will forgive me and I know that though Jesus I will be saved, however, certain Habits are going to be hard to break and I need the prayers to help me keep the faith though my own mental and emotional Tribulations.

Thank you for the unconditional Love Father, please teach that to my heart!!!

I am not known for my quiet voice, I am feared by many because of the deep loud voice that penetrates everyone around.  I have seen that this is a gift of mine and although I have the ability to raise my voice with a lot of Power, I am not using the voice properly. 

I do say it is a gift that I have, I know that I have the ability to penetrate peoples ears and gain their attention quickly with my voice.  What would it be like if I used this voice to penetrate peoples ears with kind words instead of angry words, or hurtful words. 

I am proud of who I am, however, I have a lot of work to do to make others proud of who I am.  Today I read Proverbs 29 and it reminded me of last night.  One of my daughters seamed to say only the wrong things to me, it was very upsetting, I was able to gain control quickly, but after one quick outburst I found myself in the bathroom on my knees asking for control. 

I hope I can recognize this sooner in the future and feel the calm that God gives me the instant I need it.

I have added my first Prayer: http://ourpeacepath.com/2011/12/28/the-begining

My belief is that my path for peace is going to take a lot of work, not just The Word. However, this path begins with a lot of hurt and pain caused by words of those around me.  The gossip that surrounds me and my love ones is stronger than I have ever heard before and since some of the torment and fire of lies lands on the children of my life I am praying for the peace and strenght for them.

Know the Lord, Know the Peace…